Coming off work, I zipped on over to the future office to sign my contract. I can confidently say I will be joining a wonderful group of docs.\u00a0After a whirlwind of a journey, I can most definitely say: “PHEW!”\u00a0\u00a0The more I think back the more I realize how lucky I really am. Maybe there is a higher power that is looking out for me? Or maybe there is a cosmic set of checks and balances. Whatever it is, all I k now is I need to go through a manic phase and celebrate this good fortune. Buy a few Llamas, maybe a Koala bear and scooter.<\/p>\n
I was feeling pretty good already, imagining my future seeing my own patients, having my OWN office. Yet I had this lingering sensation of dread… not knowing if I passed my boards. I’ve been counting down the days from when I took the test. We were informed 8 weeks from that day. As of this morning I had to wait ~2 more weeks. Right after the test, I felt horrible. I was for sure I bombed it. I did not feel prepared at all, and I definitely felt that the test was hard. For the next few days I had some difficulty sleeping, because I kept thinking to myself… CRAP CRAP crap crap CRAAAAP. I got over it for a little bit, but after recently watching Greys Anatomy *spoiler alert* seeing “Apes” fail her boads and see her job offers get pulled away got me thinking again. What if I failed, what if my future employer says… well since you didnt pass, we cant take you on… if I dont pass I will have to take it again, and pay… AGAIN! Suffice it to say I did not sleep well the past few days. \u00a0Heck I havent really worked out for the past 2 months (ever since March due to board studying and the post board aftermath feeling of crappiness).<\/p>\n
On my way home, I was on the phone with MommyMD and were discussing my current sensation of triumph with signing my contract. I did also mention my reservations with whether I passed or failed the boards. As I arrived home, I went to check the mail. MommyMD still on the phone, I caught my eye on an envelop addressed to me marked Confidential. THen I notice who the sender was… IT IS HERE!? Could it be? Early? \u00a0With bated breath, I hesitantly open the epistle… I cant bear to read it. I try to look at it from the back… oh what the hell. I read it. I read it 2-3 times to make sure I read it right… YOU PASSED!. what? WHAT? I PASSED!<\/p>\n
YES! I PASSED! I yelled out a screech of victory and joy (as MommyMD was still on the phone). I still couldnt believe it. I had MommyMD read it just to make sure I am not hallucinating.<\/p>\n
I still fear I will wake up and find this to have been a dream. nope. not a dream. Cant get better than this.<\/p>\n
ViviBear is walking<\/p>\n
Job is secured<\/p>\n
Boards are passed.<\/p>\n
now what… nothing to hold me back…. the ship is leaving the dock.<\/p>\n
p.s. thank you to all that truly believed all would work out. :-)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Coming off work, I zipped on over to the future office to sign my contract. I can confidently say I will be joining a wonderful group of docs.\u00a0After a whirlwind of a journey, I can most definitely say: “PHEW!”\u00a0\u00a0The more I think back the more I realize how lucky I really am. Maybe there is … <\/p>\n